Finding My Path

By Glenda Lamas

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I stared at the building in front of me. It stood strong and confident in its place. I, on the other hand, felt nervous and unsure of where my place would be during the next four years. I was a first-generation college student, and I wanted to make my parents proud of what I could accomplish. They had been unable to go to college, so they had made sure to encourage me to go. I wanted to make the right choice, and deciding on the university I chose was one of the biggest choices I had made so far.*

I didn’t know what to expect or how things worked in college, and it felt nerve-wrecking when it came to meeting important deadlines or making decisions. Then what I hoped wouldn’t happen did — I couldn’t decide on a major. It was so stressful to try and choose a major that would determine how successful I became in life.

To find a major, I took classes on different subjects. They were interesting, but I didn’t feel like pursuing them further. I began to think I was going nowhere, that I wasn’t succeeding. Whenever someone asked me what my major was or what I wanted to do in life, it pained me to answer. I disliked having to tell them that I didn’t know. So I found it exciting when I took a communications class and really enjoyed it, but I had doubts even then.

I didn’t know what I could do with a communications degree and neither did my parents. We weren't sure if I could get a secure job or even what kind of jobs were possible. I always thought I would become a teacher, lawyer, doctor, or nurse. So the thought of becoming a communications major frightened me because I didn’t want to regret my decision.

Having to make important decisions is overwhelming, because I believe they determine your future. Before I make a decision, I need to know as much as I can about my options. So I tried to learn more about what communications was, and the more I learned, the better it felt to choose this degree. Still, I worried that the decision was not the right one, So, I talked to my parents about it. They understood and reassured me that I had do what felt right and what I wanted. So finally I declared myself as a communications major.

I am a senior now. I will be graduating in June, and I couldn't be happier with the decision I made. I was able to overcome my fear of the unknown by taking a chance on a communications degree, and in doing so I learned that it was meant for me. I thank my parents for helping me, but I also thank God for leading me to this decision and allowing me to find my place. I am thankful that He listens to my worries and is by my side when I need it the most. I am happy that He has allowed me to set a good example for my younger siblings, and become a proud first-generation college student!

* Walla Walla University